Last night was crazy, the night seemed particularly long yesterday and the emotions got on the low side. I started thinking of how you actually caught my eyes and how amazing you were as a person. The pictures of you just flowed freely in my mind, the moments we spent just came rushing through.

A particular words of thanks to jiemin. Thank you chee bong! it was really nice of you to chat with me last night when my spirits were down. It was really a nice late night chat with you. Perhaps you were right, we just need to be look around us and be sure of things. But you cheer up too alright, we shall both be happy chee bongs! and tuesday's drinking date will be on! :D

All of a sudden, i feel that i'm the biggest fool in the world. A really big one indeed, i'm just wondering were those things that i told you in the past, and that am i just a tool for you. I really wondered whether did you actually betrayed my trust as a friend, i'm just disappointed and dejected. I kept telling myself to stop thinking about it, but the more i try to stop, the more it comes back. Each time, it comes back stronger, and my emotions just have to go under a rollercoaster ride.

人不为己，天诛地灭, perhaps it's really right. One man for himself, but i'm just unclear in this moment of time, i really do not know whether should i keep on trusting you, and give you the benefit of the doubt, or should i just forget about all this, and just remain as accquaintance.

Someone please tell me what should i do, i'm just so tired of having to think about such stuffs every night, and i'm really tired, really tired.

p.s : i love you