" Life has its ups & downs ", apparently i'm experiencing the latter now. It's really a terrible week, first my fever and coughing came back, than i've nearly screwed up a friendship, that's really important to me, than housework awaits me when i get home, nagged when not done. And many thoughts have been flowing through my mind these days, right now i feel as though i'm at the end of a tunnel, and just don't know which way to go.

Argghhhh!!! The feeling of being sick is really terrible, and it does not help when you are feeling moody as well, i just thinked that i've screwed up too many things in my life, at the moment. Number one, i just think i procrastinate really too much, too much to the extent that certain things were just lost, Next, i do not have any responsibility, fuck i hate saying this but i know my brother and mum keeps telling me this, and i just keep evading or brushing off this topic, i do think i've abit of this problem, i just do not take things seriously. Three, i'm really someone who thinks alot, this's abit weird, but just sometimes, i tend to jump into conclusions real easily, make certain assumptions, form certain thoughts about somethings, and it's really bad i know!

It's really screwed up right ain't it, i don't even know who can i talk to right at this moment, " where is the moment we needed the most ". Oh this is pathetic, real pathectic. I got myself into such a shit, and here now i must get myself out of it, i know we get ups and downs, but i just abhore this feeling, as in totally! I really really feel like crying out loud, or perhaps whacking somethings to vent my fustrations and emotions! Sometimes, it's as if i thinked too much, i thought i knew somethings very well, in the end it was all but a facade.

Sometimes life sucks, ain't it ?