Self-Declared holiday for me today, will not be going to school later, "clearing leave" - supposed to be nicer term to use rather than saying " Pontang ". Anyway, it's two more weeks down to Sem1 ends, okay and i've actually spent this weenkend working on a class video, just compiling on the photos we've taken and let's just take that video as the best memories of the class.

Okay, i've just read news about the passing on of Randy Pausch due to cancer, the author of the book "The Last Lecture". It's about this book where Pausch actually talks about this motion on "Really Achieving Your Childhood Dreams", this book has been given huge reviews, about it being inspirational, truthful. I've not yet have the chance to read it yet, but i will go get it soon. Although i've not read it, but i highly reccomend you all to read it, so pleas do if you have the chance.

But on this topic about achieving dreams, it comes to me that life indeed is very interesting. I see life everyday as a challenge, you know it's like sometimes somethings does not go the way you want them to be, however if you actually take that as a challenge, conquer it and defeat it, the sense of fufillment you get from it is huge.

I can't deny i'm a procrastinator, i love to delay the things that i should be doing, i know it's a bad habit, but people are weird, they obviously know what's wrong, but yet they purposely do it, for a reason or another. There are many things i've said i wanted to change, i've said this since i was in Secondary 3 that i want to lose weight, instead i gained more, i've said that i want to be a more responsible and careful person, but it does not seem this way. I've said that i wanted to do better in grades, in school, and yet i retained, and failed my math again.

You know sometimes i really "hate" myself, in a sense that i know what i ought to be doing, yet i'm not doing it, all i can say is " wait, wait, wait". I'm not sure whether you people have the same experience about this, but i really want to change. I mean it comes to a point where, you start to ask yourself, " What Achievements Do You Have ? ", and my answer would be " NONE to speak of, perhaps changing peoples' lives but not myself ".

It's about time for that change in my life, and recently i've also been wanting to join Service Learning IG, if there's still a chance for as far as i know the application has been closed. I think building on the point i've said earlier, there's so much the society has done for us and it's high time we start to pay back, and i believe Service Learning is also a good way in about learning more about yourself.

Another thing i would like to mention would be that i found out that as people starts to grow older, the importance of certain things, be in measured in terms of monetary or otherwise starts to differ, and the matter of perspective in viewing things also take a revolutionary change. Sometimes, we might think that things like material comfort as high importance, however as you get older, and you experienced certain incidents in your life, you start to realise love is more important, be it friendship, families or even relationships, they are like wealth, except they can't be measured in terms of cash.