No More Regrets!

I've come to those moments in where you start to lament almost everything that had gone wrong in your life, those little regrets, those great memories, and basically a recollection of everything. I wouldn't say it's a bad thing, although it isn't very great either.

As i grow older, i start to realised some stupid mistakes i made in the past, and how foolish i could be at times, as in really foolish. It's like you can only live to regret as much as you would like to rectify it. I tend to let my heart rule over my head and this is where things start to go wrong, you get the wrong idea about someone, you start to accumulate negative connections with that person and it becomes a misunderstanding, by the time you realised it, there's already a barrier, and no matter how much you rectify, there's always a sense of "awkwardness".

I actually told myself sometimes, that tomorrow i would live my life as though there's no tomorrow, i would do what i want to, what i need and what i should and i would not let anything hold me back. But in actual fact, it's really hard putting all those words into action. Just take a classic example of having a crush on a girl, you know at first you developed a liking for her, than you got close to her, but you're afraid of asking her, fearing to get rejected as well as losing the friendship. I'm starting to realise that all these while, i've been stopped by all these fears/ negative connections that i'm not actually progressing much.

To be honest, i think i can't really be bothered much, in a sense that from now on, i think i would just do whatever is right, whatever that should be done and whatever that needs to be done. I've just had enough of all these "crap". Alright, i know that this post is pretty random, but i feel much better writing it down, hopefully i would be able to fufilled it, and i'm sure i'm able to!